I'm tryna find a f**k to give...but, not at the expense of losing myself!

For most of my life, I did what I thought I was supposed to do based on the expectations I thought others had of me. It caused anxiety, an unhealthy strive for perfection, and pure discontentment. One day, I decided there was no way I could commit to living a life to please other human beings. So, I embarked on a journey to find me. I know I was not physically lost, but my identity was so wrapped up in the perceptions and expectations of others that I didn’t know where that stopped and where I began. I had to start peeling off the layers one by one. I began to evaluate everything and everyone. I started asking myself questions like: Does this serve me? Is it/he/she beneficial for my soul? Would I do this if I did not think they expecte